Break Free

I don't trust a single thought inside my head.

What is something that you simply can't protect?

There's a weak point in my mind that I reinforce,

But it can be broken down by a certain force.

I need to build it, 
make me stronger,
exhausted but this time ill last longer,
Not giving in this time,
not to my mind,
its strange i find, it's hard to climb,
so why must i,
fall every time,
it ain't a crime,
it ain't a crime,
why're my thoughts not mine?
Who thinks that they can decide?

My mind is mine.

Held captive by the baptist
What good god gives hell to the hapless?
What a god you serve if absurdity is normaility, 
abusing mentality is the only reality, 
brutality is formality?
what kind of morality?
I mean if mortality is fine with causing fatality,
It's against my rationality.

Can't build myself up with this faith i gotta make my own way,
Don't ask me how,
I'll plow through it, "how?"
I said don't ask,

Im my own god now.

My religion is givin' myself the mechanisms to keep on livin' to fight off the unforgivin',
I wont be sinning
Do my own bidding
This power wasn't given

I broke out of my own prison.

"Hey Elles, Glad you're doing better"
Gee, thanks, 
though you cared never.

Don't talk to me if you ever made me feel lesser.
Don't act like you cared when you helped tie the tether, 
y'know, the one that you all held together then dragged me through hell and back tellin' me to stop my blether, 
only concerned about your own damn pleasure.

Now that I've broken free just leave me be,
let me rebuild what you killed,
Let me see what life can be,
You had your fun, 
but now I'm done.
Time to indulge in healing, 
then start revealing,

The real me.

Just let me be me.