broken full of rage

i feel as if im breaking down i cant survive this fall
im reading all this shit online when your hurt reach out and call
no one understands this struggle all i want is numb
so sensitive wont recover and they just think its all dumb
your happiness was all i craved at the risk of losing me
i feel i can not be saved and they dont care to see 
they bent me and now im broken pissed and full of rage
it isnt just what ive done it will soon be center stage
abandoned shunned no longer there
if you dont why the hell should i care 
im just a shell now hollowed out
look in my eyes you'll have no doubt
i didnt want your fucking money
laughing at me cause im so funny
if you love me why did you run so far
leaving my heart with a permanent scar
the blood that runs inside of you
runs through my heart and my veins too
so help me please to understand
really i dont think i can
you watched me fall and almost die
not once did i see any of you cry
how can we be the same inside
i would never let you die
this road is long when walked alone
im trying so hard to get back home
but the person you see in front of you
is not the one your all used to
i am broken full of rage
it was you who opened my locked cage
trust me when i say tread light
cause this is gonna be a sight
love is unconditional ive always felt
i finally see the cards you dealt
knock me down you just dont know 
in your shadow i couldnt grow
but still i gave you everything
the stab was just the starting sting
i close my eyes now to pretend
im dangerously close now to the end