Bullet I'd Miss
Everyday I wake up in pain.
Tryin to push it out of sight.
Has me wanting to look at the light.
Sometimes I just lie in bed and cry.
Not fearing if I die.
It'd be a blessing.
It would take away all the stressing.
My mom. She has no clue.
But that's what I wanted to do.
Don't need her to worry.
Thinking shell know I'm sorry.
But it's okay
They say.
You'll be fine.
That night I was blind.
No control,
Not in the right state of mind.
That's not me.
I wonder if I could ever be happy.
It's a big doubt.
No ones ever gonna hear me pout.
See it's deep inside.
It's something I hide.
No one should know.
I just want to go.
Far away.
Leave this place.
That makes me remember the disgrace.
I never wanna see his face.
You see I was once happy
Filled with glee.
Now I'm separated, I can't find the real me.
It's something I won't forget.
Something I'll always regret.
No one sees it.
But I'm ready to split.
Say bye to this world.
Maybe I'll be a whole new girl.
Depression.....
Is this so pose to teach me a lesson?
I'm sorry god for what ever I did.
I know I was a real bad kid.
I'm punished at night.
I always wake up in a fright
I'm punished in the day.
Having to pretend I'm okay.
I'm not. Some people already forgot.
Never put how I'm feeling into thought
What do you expect.
Everyone is filled with neglect.
Even my own father.
He won't even bother.
No one will know my pain.
Or the suffering.
I'll lie and say I'm fine.
I'll pretend to be kind.
But I have hate, and anger in me.
It's ready to set free.
How is this okay?
What am I so pose to say.
Never have I thought of feeling this.
I just thought this be the bullet I'd miss.
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A great write, I loved your technique and style! It was rhythmic and fluid, with great content. It's like you're thinking out loud, great job. A small thing Heather but in two places I assume you meant to put 'supposed' and you put 'so pose' which broke the reading flow. Just a tiny detail but I loved it Heather. A 5*s and nom from me :)
A real good write Miss Day. Carefully directing a lot of overwhelming feelings and unleashing them on a page in full flow. Very controlled and I can see a lot of energy seeped onto the pages.
Good words heather about feelings and emotions that most people experience sometime in their lives.
Very honest words, well presented and many can relate. Congrats
Wonderful write. I look forward to reading more of your work.
Keep writing kid, it really does help, although I don't need to tell you that, do I? There are a couple of lines that resonate with me: Sometimes I just lie in bed and cry. Not fearing if I die. It'd be a blessing. It would take away all the stressing.
There are many nights I have gone to bed asking God to take me in the night; the pain at times is overwhelming!
But, there are also times when the emotional pain ebbs away; when a friend makes you laugh, when you see something daft, when you do something well. It may not quell the hurt inside, but for a time it does subside, and it's time such as those when you don't need to hide.
Good luck Heather, something we all need; and according to the Scots, white heather is good luck.
Congrats on your winning nomination
Regards
WILLIAMSJI MAVELI