Bully’s Apology

Sorry 
And I want to apologize 
For making this girls life hell
But... 
Sorry
Doesn’t encompasses it anymore
Because even though I forgot her name
She’ll never forget my face
Or what it felt like to be excluded
And I have no excuses
Because their is never an excuse for that behavior
Because when I should have been my best
Was at my best 
With the best friends I’d ever had
I wasn’t. 
Because that summer was the happiest I’ve ever been
And I didn’t know how to deal with happy
Because I hadn’t been in such a long time
And it took me years to realize that I had been more of a bully
Then I had ever been a victim of bullying
Sorry 
I apologize 
And I hope wherever you are
That my face doesn’t register 
Doesn’t even occupy a fraction of your brain
Sorry
But I know that that isn’t possible
I hope you see this
I hope you’re smiling. 
I hope you know that I’m. 
Sorry. 
But that doesn’t encompass it anymore
I made your life hell because I didn’t know how to deal with happy
Because some part of my brain needed... 
anger
shame
power
rebellion
Sorry.