Can You See

People have always said things about me
Like you're gorgeous, pretty, beautiful
But I was usually just scared - you see
They saw things I never felt in me
I could never be anonymous
I was never in public without someone staring at me
Men were always available - you see
I never had a man that didn't say - I can't believe you're with me
But in my heart I was just simple - you see
I wanted everyone to like me
But women were usually hard for me
Some wouldn't even look at me
Never had a boss that his wife liked me
They always wanted to get rid of me
For all my young years I never stopped trying
I tried everything I could so people would like me
But it wasn't in the cards - you see

So I kept myself in shape
Maintaining that 36-24-36 physique
After all many people were looking at me
But inside I was self conscious and insecure - you see
I still stayed that little girl
Crying in the closet - singing to Jesus
Take me home with you - please
Screaming and fighting everyday
Abuse really affected me - you see
Insecurity controlled the inner me
I picked bad men just like my daddy - you see
Set myself up for heartache - you see
But I was pretty on the outside
And that's all people would see about me

I must say older age suits me
I can finally be invisible - you see
A welcoming freedom and I like it - you see
Even women like me - finally I'm free
So many years of kissing ass wanting people to accept me
I'm considered a senior and I love it - you see
The outside has caught up with the inside - you see

Freedom from external perfection that is now leaving me!

Can you see the real me?

Can you see.....