Can't forget

I tried so hard to forget you, I must have called you every name, the past becomes the past and now the pain replaced the blame.
A dagger to the heart, oh yes I know it sounds cliché, a double agent from the start and with a heart you chose to play.
The questions are now fewer, but the lessons remain the same, why did I expect you would reflect and in the end would feel the shame.
We walked our separate paths and yes it's true to say you gained, but a war is still a war and where there's blood there must be blame.
I gave so much to you and no, you cannot say the same, was never written in the stars but more a draft you burned in flames.
Alone to deal with issues that you left when you said bye, iv slipped on every step so now I don't see the point to try.
Haunted by a spirit, it could be yours it could be mine, I hear whispers whenever I feel it, should I now fear for my mental healths decline.
I'm now crippled by my demons, I feel the full weight of their sin, prosperity unlikely, preservation wearing thin.