The Choices of Love

I finally said it.
The three words I swore I never would.
Will I regret it?
Did I truly mean them?

Something told me it was right,
but could I be wrong?
And do you truly love me,
or are you only playing along?

I long for your touch,
for your sweet caress.
I would be wanting to sin,
only if this is not a jest.

When our minds grew closer,
my feelings became more real.
Even though the difference of life,
I knew my fate was sealed.

My confusion has started to grow,
blossoming into a raging storm.
My mind and heart have fought,
but this time,
who was best informed?

No one can help.
They don't truly understand.
Even if they did,
only I can make the final command.

So many choices.
Too many to bear.
I still can't make any.
Why did I have to be so scared?

Only I can decide, where I will now lead.
But first,
a choice,
a decision indeed.

To let my mind win
and leave my heart to bleed.
Or let love stand strong
and make my mind plead.

The time has now come,
I must do the deed.
Did I make the right choice?
Or did I only kill me?