Circumsized by Ceniqua L. Proctor A.K.A. Nicole Reed

My mind recalls a void that was left untold,

Confination is not always the answer but who wants that load.

Not even I,who can thrust a universe,

These lines were never rehearsed.

I was thrown out to the pits to fail,

No where to run, no one present for bail.

These so called friends I had,

Would feed me deception as I was a she-lad.

Im discluded from the closest thing I knew for love,

Other than the man I relied on above.

I had to deal to perservere,

The many nights I shed a tear.

Yes one tear I shed in pain,

The bottled aggression was my gain.

We sew in tears for a reason,

I wasn't prepared for the next season.

Why was it so hard to love a person like me,

Was I not what you expected me to be,

My dad was your adversary.

 That's not my fault,

I always charished what you taught.

U mock my exsistence, is this the reason why?

The agony, I cant deny.

The very thing that was there to kill me,

Is the cement that wants to build me.

Love is so hard to express,

Which can delineate an emptiness.

My mother is who nurtured my dreams,

In actually Im just hoping things.

Dad was a lover of himself,

He chased woman and hungered after wealth.

So where will that leave the precious little mistake at hand,

This ridiculous affair was impulsively planned.

I forgive you although you still haven't quite apologized,

All my suppressed feelings are now circumsized.

Circumsized by Ceniqua L. Proctor A.K.A. Nicole Reed