Evil Ex Boyfriend #6

I wish I didn't even have to write this about you
Because you are a wonderful daddy, 
But you're not so much boyfriend material
You became too comfortable and stopped trying
It's such a shame that I wasted 8 months on you
Hoping you'd turn yourself around and change
But you didn't want to, so now your words are stuck in my brain
You were beyond mean, disrespectful and way out of line
If I had known that's how you treated women,
I wouldn't have wasted my time
And I sure in hell wouldn't have spent a single damn dime!
You were playing me the whole time I thought you were mine
Said you were going to go spend the day with your kids
Only it turned into you staying gone, all night, all of the time
I started to feel like I was the third wheel
I tried to express myself, but you never cared how I felt
You didn't are at all, how it would eventually make me feel
Head over heels fool for you, but you didn't feel it too
You never told you me loved me, at all
You didn't care enough to show you cared, at all
You thought all I ever wanted, was your dick
You never helped me all those times I was sick
You always treated me like a stranger, like some random chick
That's when everything from your behavior and actions started to click
And then I came to that conclusion when you started calling me names
Names I shouldn't have ever been called
But that's what I get for not being able to be myself, or alone
And that is problematic whenever I meet someone and I begin to fall
I love hard, I wear my heart on my sleeve
But I couldn't take the mental abuse, 
the verbal abuse, or the emotional abuse
Anymore, so that's when I finally told you 
"You have to go now, You have to leave"
The names that flew out of his mouth, stung so bad
It was too harsh to understand, I couldn't believe
In the end, he accused me of cheating on him
But the truth is, he was the one cheating on me.
He didn't want to be here with me
So after 8 months of mental torture, 
I told him to leave, I told him to go ,
& I set myself free.

Stephanie A. Ludwig
04/27/2025