City that never sleeps

Take a breath 
count to ten 
looking in from the outside 
my city of ugly
stories in crumbling walls
ashes strewn with disdain
here's the need to hurt
to remember I feel 
punch a hole 
in the wall
cut of the blade
on my skin
his fists on my ribcage
blood on my fists
familiar roads I take 
to kill my broken thoughts
seething I sit in the dark 
talking to the Devil 
on the right side of hell
wearing the same mask
the Devil and I 
slip on the hate 
walk into the headlights 
honesty changes us all 
arms wide open- make it rain
make it rain 
of the blood you spill
I spill
I spill
walk away from the sun
says the Devil 
together we can unbecome
fade into the night 
let go
be undone 
I don't hesitate 
don't know 
where time has gone 
filled it foolishly 
with proud intentions 
I'll find a way 
to the city I built
unlit by the moon 
in darkest of nights 
words of a freakshow
intentions of a heathen
abandoned by my mad gods
find pain 
violent absolution
I seek unabashed
only solace is rage

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