Completion

Agitated, urgent, brusque, movements around and above me.
Muted roaring in my ears… my brain confused and all logic indistinct.
There are lights around me and hands holding mine….
so much pain….waves of insane pain taking what little breath I have, clean away.
Hands moving me, touching me, quickly.
Voices talking, urgently, I feel hands stroking my head,
whispering ‘it’s ok hun, it’s okay’
what’s ok? Why are you saying that?
Pain numbing my senses……….lights so bright, too bright…
Suddenly… the pain is gone…..
There is silence….
I see my hands…I feel them…. I am laying on the grass
My feel my hands fumbling  through the crisp, green blades
and letting them slip through my fingers.
I can smell, so vividly, the earthy peat of the flower beds where the pastel pink camellias
are gently shaking their petals in the soft fragrant air.
I see the blueberries, dripping from the bushes, ripe and bountiful ,
waiting to release their delicious juices with every greedy mouthful taken.
I hear the velvet bees leisurely fulfilling their role and  I know with absolute certainty
that finally  I have fulfilled mine – here amidst this little piece of heaven  I created with love,
is where I will close my eyes forever , without regret and  will remain- the cycle complete