You'll Read This

You'll read this one.
I know you will.

Ah, what am I meant to say, except it was all self-imposed?
You were great - you were great with me. 
And yeah, I know I'm a strange fish, full of many contradictions and internal conflict.
And none of that was ever your fault.
But I'm getting by. 

I don't want to be in your life.
It wasn't for me, but sometimes I wish it could have been.

I know I'm a thorn in your side - but at least thorns can be pulled out and healed.
I hope that's already happened for you.

I just look back at the good now. 
I hope you can too.

The time has come for closure.
Finally. Regrettably. And one last thing.
I never really had one last question.

That probably feels as empty to me,
As it does to you. 

Sorry... doesn't quite cut it.