Dad

I only ever wanted your love
Your affection
You only ever gave me insult
You only ever told me what I did wrong
Any attempt to love me was awkward
But I loved you so much for the attempt

But every time we got closer
You got angry
You made me feel stupid
Sometimes I thought I hated you
You are always right, never wrong
Anything I tried to make you happy failed
Miserably

I was never good enough
You set me up for failure from the beginning
And still I hold my tongue
Just wanting you to be happy
Tell me you appreciate me
And not because you read my words
Or because I tell you
But because It's real
I would kill to save you
I jump at any direction you give me
For no word of kindness
For your sly remarks
Poking fun at my weakness

But it's not that funny Dad