DAYDREAM

As I lay here still....Thinking and wishing for many things to be different, For instance, my existence, my purpose emerges, urges my attention for certain. ..I'm lurking and searching for reasons and meanings for the life I'm living..But I thank God I'm still breathing. ..Containing with remaining thoughts are creating a path for me to cross. ..But at the moment I'm lost without any explanations. ..embracing with patience. My silence is violent. Inside I'm crying and dieing for answers. ..I feel like I'm slowly fading away like cancer. I smirk with laughter then open my eyes and ask myself. ...Was this just a dream or was it a wake up call to prepare for the life after!