Dear Fentanyl

Dear Fentanyl, 

Why did you go and make me believe you were ever something so good?
These withdrawals are crazy and they are making my skin crawl
You’ll never be in my life again, just another past memory underneath my hood
The way you make my body tremor, cold and jittery
Almost made me want to be put out of my misery
I’ve dealt with you head to head once before
I can do what I want, and that’s not you anymore
You’ve never given me anything satisfying but a 15 minute high 
At the time of my struggle and addiction it felt so wonderful I can’t even lie
But it’s not worth the pain you’ve caused, it’s not worth everything I’ve lost
You were shoved into my IV before I could even say no
So I sit here and question, who’s the real problem though?
You itself, or the sneaky hospital staff?
Besides me, my closest loved ones have to suffer my wrath
You make me go insane, because I’m constantly itchy
I get irritated, agitated and sometimes even bitchy
How is this fun for me or for anyone?
I’ve taken the next steps to get you out of my life forever
My want for you, my need for you, IT’S OVER!! I’M DONE!
You’ve proved to be no good for me, but something very wrong
Now it’s my turn to turn the final chapter and share my healing song
In one point of my life you were always number one, 
But just remember honey, you are nothing now and this battle, I’ve finally won.

Stephanie Davis
February 2022