Dear God

Dear God, can you hear me? Can you hear my sobbing? My pleas to just go to sleep and stay in that peaceful state?
Dear God, I'm wondering what I did wrong. I'm wondering what did I do to deserve this life I'm living. No matter how hard I try I'm never successful. 
Dear God, do you love me? I read that you love all your children. But right now I'm feeling adopted. I don't feel any love, from you, my family, or my friends. 
Dear God, are you there? People say you're always with them, especially in their time of need. But I'm feeling lonely and abandoned. 
Dear God, why am I here? You put all your children on the earth for a reason? But what's mine?
Dear God, I've been leaving you messages for a while now. Are you getting them? Did you notice that I gave up at a point? I came back because I missed the warmth of your love, but I'm feeling rather cold.
Dear God, you took from me the one person who loved me so fiercely I never questioned it. You took the person who made my life look like an exclamation mark and not a question mark. I've been trying to reach him as well, but you always put me on hold, you never connect us so I can say goodbye.
Dear God, do you believe in me? People ask me all the time if I believe in you, but do you believe in me? At this point I wouldn't be surprised if the answer was a no, because I don't even believe in myself. 
Dear God, please give me a sign. Let me feel the warmth of your love. Let me know this life isn't worth giving up. Tell me you believe in me. Address me as your child, and I will feel your love once again. I don't doubt you anymore but I also don't believe in myself. I need someone to believe in me. 
Dear God, could you be a believer?
Dear God, look at the mess that I've made with this heart you perfectly sculpted for me. How many cracks I have because I've trusted it in the hands of someone who's dropped it, and even thrown it. It's going to shatter one of these days.
Dear God, would you put my heart back together when no one else will?
Dear God, are we friends? I could use a friend at this point. Someone to encourage, inspire, and support me. I promise I'd do the same for you.
Oh, dear God. I'm lost. I'm drowning in what seems like a void of my own sadness.
Dear God, could you be my life preserver? Could you lend me a life vest, or even just a friendly hand?
​​​​Dear God, I need your help.
Dear God, I need you.