Dear John,

When I vowed to put you

before all others,

I meant every word.

When you earned a little trust,

I gave you all.

When you asked for a family,

I did my best,

to give you

the very best. 

And they are!

When you earned my disdain,

I showed you compassion.

When your words made no sense,

I still took your word,

filled in the darkened blanks,

and thought the best of you.

When you trampled and killed

my dignity and honor,

I still show you honor,

for our kids’ sakes.

I gave you my love unconditionally,

And I’ll never take it back,

But that doesn’t mean

I could be yours again, ever!

You may think I’m a fool,

But I know much better.

You may think I owe you,

and I do,

but lucky for you,

but that’s a debt

that never will

be repaid.