Dear Michael

Dear Michael,

It was for the best.

I was 16

And pregnant with you, my child.

Your father and I weren't  prepared,

Our problems piled.

Your grandparents were furious,

Have an abortion they said.

I was torn,

Sorrow I bled.

Your dad was scared,

He knew we were too young.

But to think that we couldn't take care of our little one,

Felt like fire flooding my lungs.

We didn't have money,

We had only love to provide.

I didn't know how to feel,

My emotions I did hide.

The options that were given,

Weren't ones I enjoyed.

Either abortion,

Or drop out of school and attempt to be employed.

But one day,

I came up with an idea so incredible.

I could give you to a wonderful family,

It was the only alternative that was sensible.

Once I told your dad,

He agreed.

We came into contact with an adoption agency,

A good family for our baby boy is what we did need.

They gave us control

 over how things were done.

So there we were,

trying to the give a great life to our son.

After we told the staff what qualities we wanted in the parents,

We were “matched” with 3 couples and given their profiles to read.

I was shocked that this was actually happening,

All my tears were freed.

Each profile included a very informative and emotional letter 

written to birth mothers.

Each letter had information like

What they did for a living, interests, and other.

Although I read each letter at least 20 times,

One caught my eye from the very beginning.

I’d think about the beautiful life you’d have with them,

I’d find myself grinning.

The couple somehow seemed more sincere and better expressed

About how much they would love a child.

Every loving word they wrote,

Made me tear up and smile.

I was touched by what they had gone through to become parents,

and how long they have been waiting for their own little one.

They were perfect,

No other couple like them under the sun.

We had a choice whether we wanted to meet them,

And we certainly did.

When it was time to meet them,

My stomach was in knots thinking they were going to take care of our kid.

When the meeting began,

There was so much tension.

Awkward conversations,

That I’d rather not mention.

But when your new dad cracked a joke,

We felt a connection with them.

You're new mom was kind,

A real gem.

I knew then we made the right desicion,

I knew then that everything was going to be okay.

Next thing I know,

I'm laying on a hospital bed in scrubs that are gray.

8 centimeters dilated,

You're almost here.

The nurse only let's your father in,

So basically the room is clear.

Your father's family and mine arrived a couple hours ago,

Your new family is in another room as well.

9 centimeters dilated,

The contractions were getting stronger by the minute, I could tell.

Everyone is excited

For your birth.

I wouldn't trade you for anything,

That's how much you're worth.

10 centimeters dilated,

Its time.

Everybody says pregnancy is in steps,

Well I think walking is too easy, it's more like a climb.

Before I know it,

I'm crying.

Because you're the most extraordinary thing that's ever happened to me,

And holding you in my arms is electrifying.

Your father held you next,

I could tell in his soft eyes that he didn't want to part.

We knew giving you up was going to be hard,

We both love you truly unconditionally from the deepest depths of our hearts.

After our families saw you through skype,

They were relieved that everything was alright.

But your new family wanted to meet you too,

And when they held you their faces lit up so bright.

They fell in love with you,

That's all I could ever ask for.

Honestly,

I couldn't ask for more.

Tears upon tears fell off everyone's cheeks,

We knew it was time to separate.

The blue sky was turning to black,

It was getting late.

So you're new parents took you home,

Your father and I cried all night.

We did this for you,

We knew what we did was right.

We love you, that will never change,

Ever.

You're old enough now to make a choice yourself,

You can meet us if you want, for our love for you will never sever.

No matter if you would like to see us or not,

We will always be here just in case you ever do.

It was for the best,

Dear Michael.

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