Dear You Know Who You Are,

Dear you know who you are,

I found out that I wasn't worth it. That I wasn't a good enough friend. 

That I wasn't there to listen to you. Even though  I wasn't worth listening to.

I forgave you the second it happened. I understood that it may have been my fault.

I understood where you were coming from. I understood you.

Even when I wasn't understood. A friendship is a two way streak.

It requires two people. I think I just got tired.

Tired of waiting for me to be able to tell my story.

Tired of waiting to hear the end of yours.

Tired of hoping for the best.

Tired of being friends with someone who doesn't care about anyone but themselves.

I am tired. I am not okay. I will never be okay. I need people to. I don't need to be picked on. I don't need to be criticized by my "friends". I don't need you. I don't need you to judge me with the same eye that my monsters do. I don't need that. I don't need to feel ashamed of myself when I'm around my "friends".

I should be comfortable.

But I'm not.

Especially when you say things about me to other people, to make you seem cooler, more popular...better than me. 

Well from one friend to another. I don't need you.

I don't need the stress.

I don't need the criticism.

I need a friend. 

An actual friend.

So if you're listening....and you know who you are. I forgave you the second it happened. I just haven't been able to forget, that's all.

Your Friend, Colton.