Decisions

My minds feeling blocked 
I can't think straight 
I can't make a choice 
I wanna have a voice 
to stand up for myself 
but i always shy away
I'm not comfortable enough 
in my own skin 
i feel as though 
everything I do is wrong 
I second guess
and make a mess 
I think I'm helping 
when im really just hurting 
there's no escape 
I'm stuck in this fate 
filled with hate 
begging for help 
I can't decide 
I just wanna hide 
or drown in a tide 
when will it end? 
when will I be happy?