Let her go

Sometimes I feel conflicted 
as if my minds being constricted 
I have love for my mom 
but it's too dangerous 
I feel bad for her 
like an amateur 
I should be strong 
remember all the pain she causes
never forget all the loses.. 
but I get distracted 
and become impacted 
All over again  
I wish I could let her know 
make her understand 
how she truly affected me
she'll never get it 
I need to forget it
why keep trying?
What's the point of crying?
I need to keep her out 
and never pout 
it's time to be strong 
and keep moving on