Defining Depression

It's a commitment, you didn't commit to

That was evolved and grew spontaneously with in you

And before you knew it, it slowly became a part a part of you

Depression is shaky hands because you don't have an appetite to even take a bite

Depression is squinting eyes, because when you finally have to go outside, the sun is like a bright stranger

Depression is a bath tub full of city water, I like the way the chlorine infused water comforts me, while burning my pruned skin.

Depression is knotted hair, because even running a brush through your locks, is a chore you don't want a part of

Depression is having no energy, yet, you are beyond fully rested

Sore hips and sore shoulders because getting out of bed sounds horrendous, like nails on a chalk board or the word moist

Dried tears on pillow cases, last night, some emotions escaped

The urge to push everyone away because you don't know how to entertain, yet, You fear of being alone

Because when you are alone, Your mind never stops racing.

It's like turning pages through books and loosing the places

It's missing a place you have never been, The empty feeling from down with in

It's the suffocation from the hands of depression, Grasping your throat until you explode

It's the insomnia pumping caffeine into your brain stem

Depression is having so much emotion, yet, a numbing feeling

Like a small dose of lidocaine for a major surgery

It's having words racing in your head, wanting to form together and get wrote on paper

Yet, When the pen is in your hand, the words evaporate like water in the sun

Depression is having so much love, but, no way to show it

You wake up fighting mad for no reason

There is no reason!

I get the urge to punch a brick wall or scream at the top of my lungs on a mountain

God, I have all these feelings with in, I can not maintain or contain it

I don't want to die, but, I need to go away from here

My future and sanity are so unclear

Where did it all go wrong? When did I become the loner, stuck in a dark hole?

Happy day's, Golden day's, When smiles and laughter once painted my face

I can't remember how my voice sounds, when I'm cheerful

I can't remember how it felt to have a soul

I feel like an immortal with a warm body

Depression has over come me