Demons

I've died so many times inside
My soul only knows
The path to hell 
Each time I am sent back
To relive each regret
In a place where my tears dwell
Though only time will tell
If I can repair my soul
With time itself 
I can't help wanting you near
Reaching for you
But my arms repel
The force within my heart
That drags me back to you
I'm clawing my way out
Each time I think I've saved myself
My mind wounds me
With a heckling shout 
"you will never escape" 
The wheel of fortune turns
I am left upside down
I wish I could banish the demon 
That beckons me to my doom
And leaves me to drown
In a pool full of my own regret
My fears and tears 
Unbound 
I am doomed to walk alone it seems
Lost forever 
Never found