Demons from my past

Held up, highest regards, head held high, regardless how far ive come or far down i am.

Storm clouds up ahead, keep marching forward, push on through this tragic forest.

Darkness looms these trees, not a sound to hear, not even a churping bird to sing, no wild life to be seen, a different sight to see.

Walking the meadows which are foggy and hollow, due south with the mossy oaks, true north is my approach.

Entering the tree lines ridge, a certain sound splits the air, steam from my breath paces faster in the nights cold crisp wind.

What i see trembles me, the sounds of my demons growls bellowing out, till this point they havnt caught up to me until now.

A hard task now upon me next, a brutal battle for a war to begin, i must stand and fight each demon i have left.

Fighting for a future to keep the past behind me at last, wounds better left healed, each one i had to feel when they were fresh.

Secrets better kept in death, trying to clean my life i kept a mess, do whats right, right the wrongs ive done.

I pray to the almighty for strength from above, each decision with a smarter choice being made, cant redo the bad ive done, i try to heal all this pain ive caused those i love.

All i can wish, knowing i have no right to ask, please forgive me for all the destruction ive caused, forgive me for the man i was, that man is gone.

A man stands here before you today, to tell you this man has changed, its been a long way falling down, even more of a brutal climb back to the top.

For i am found, ive been lost for so long.. i forgot who i was, through my long decent, at rock bottom, finally learned who i was, finally figured out who this man is that walks tall and proud today.

Darkness and hate in that hole where i lived, a place i never want to be ever again, people can change, a changed man i am, please let me back in your lives again, so i can show you both i can become a better dad..

That and this.. to you two boys all i can, although having no right to ask.. in your lives can i please come back..