Denial

A long white hallway
Nothingness reigns
Numbness spreads throughout my limbs
I am utterly at peace

Streaks of anger, betrayal
Crack my perfect realm
I want to scream, to shout
My peace is ruined

A ball of black yarn escapes
From the barricade I have made
A barricade of denial
From the truths that threaten me

I chase the yarn as it unspools
Daedalus’s maze revealed
Left, then right, then left again
Leading me past decaying fences

A mess of dark yarn
A mess, in my peace!
I try to burn it, sear it away
Rid myself of what I refuse to believe

At last, I crumple
Into a pile, like the yarn
I can’t run any more
I can’t pretend any longer

I am a mess, as the yarn has said
I am rude, and selfish, and mean
My soul is dark, as the yarn has hinted
I must change, into who I was meant to be

The walls of my denial wash away
Leaving colour and brightness behind
I cry with joy, with relief, with pain
And step into my new role, as the Saved.