Down Hearted

I Am downhearted, I Know when it started. I lost control of me, of my self. I know what if feels like to want to die.Not to feel emotion not to want too feel sickness, and health, when you don't have wealth, life is not easy for you. You Want to eat, but nothing is there just going empty. No one to care. Wanting someone to rescue you. Just darkness of gloomy nights .you have no one to care no one to be there god where are you? You promise me after life what if I survive this life on your cause's if I don't commit sin. Well suicide then will you be there ? In the bible it says you won't forgive me but I thought that's why Jesus died on the cross was to die for are sin but then you give us these commandments? I have so many questions I asked for bread you were not there I am in America. Food Price's are so ex's pensive they don't want to raise the currency. Of the dollar were supposed to be free and happy that's a lie I'm scrapping buy.. I'm on the edge of saying good bye will you be there to rescue me if I die or is that a lie?

"I wrote this for a close friend, who is going through alot.I never sent it to him because well I didn't want to upset him.His problems became mine when he told me, about it. Thanks for reading.."