Depression

Most people don't know
Or don't believe
That depression controls people

At the most random times we get upset
We will hate the people close to us
When they have nothing wrong

We try and fight it
When we lose
It consumes us whole

Sometimes we welcome the snake
of Depression
That has come to consume us

We are tired of fighting
We don't care
"Take us," we yell

I have many times yelled this
Many times I have been ready to
Quit fighting the snake.

To just let him consume me
Many times I have fallen at his feet
Drawing blood to numb the emotional pain

And many times
He has pushed me away
Telling me, "Not yet."

In some ways I am glad
That he continues to push me away
In some ways I'm not

The emotional pain isn't so bad anymore
It's almost nonexistent
I haven't had to numb the pain

For a while now.
Many times I have wanted to.
Many times i have not

The snake was my enemy
I think of him more as a
Friend now.

He continues to push me away
He has not yet consumed me
I thank him for that

Though still worried of the
Day that he will
Consume me whole