DeTeRmInEd GoAlS
Freestyle
I didn’t replace me
You can’t face me
Keep calling me someone
IM NOT
That doesn’t change me
Back to who he was
Nor make me
Who I’m not
I have moved on
Overcoming
Childhood trauma
Past pain
HEARTBREAK
Insecurities
And feelings of
WEAKNESS
IM BETTER
Now time to
DIFFERENTIATE
Realize I’m ok of that
Now I got
OTHER BATTLES
Like alcoholism
And love for others
Besides MYSELF
Narcissism
FAITH
Might be the only cure
And I know in my heart
This to be true
But one step at a time
Leads to a lifetime of
CURE
Baby steps
This transformation
But 31 years of
HELL ON EARTH
Seems impossible to
CURE
Unless you want it BAD
And I sure DO
ACKNOWLEDGEMENT
ACCEPTANCE
UNDERSTANDING
REALIZING
DESIRING
CHANGE
TO BE
OR NEVER TO NOT BE
THAT ISN'T OF QUESTION
I WILL AND IN TIME
BECOME BETTER
A PROMISE I
MADE TO
MYSELF
Sincerely,
Shallow Waters......
Not
Reborn
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wonderful poem
Thank you Greg :)
Shallow Waters, I think you captured that journey of self discovery through the battle of trauma really well. Our past can have an immeasurable amount of impact on the NOW. But most of it is caused from the effects of other things or people. So our true self fights to be freed. But it gets consumed by those things that tried to shape us into a broken shell of a human. So we have high and low moments, as we seek our selves within the rubble of our past. I got my fingers crossed for you to breakdown all that rubble and free yourself from your demons. The audio was perfect for the poem.
“These demons in my closet got me feeling like am a little bit narcissistic, when it comes to being realistic”
Powerful self assessment here. When we take true stock of how we project ourselves, and what is influencing our thinking, we become open to accepting change and healing. We become more empowered. You express perfectly the turmoil many face as they strive to climb out of that past rubble
I hope in time you feel happier
Gwen
Thank you for your interpretation and point of view . I appreciate your support and desire for my self journey and transformation . My relationships with my family have been night and day difference since my last year of poetry and the letting go of “bad blood”
along with bitterness and past resentment . Some really tough conversations with my relatives that normally would’ve been off limits due to my comfort level and or lack of confidence preventing us from getting closer or being able to forgive and apologize ( which have both taken place) Including a visit with my step dad . Moving back to where I ran from and having to face it all was necessary however I think I relied on alcohol a little to much without realizing as a comfort to dilute the anxiety and I acknowledged that. So these next two issues seem very realistic to overcome as I felt at one time my past trauma would be something I’ve accepted would go to the grave with me. Thank you for your kind words and support .