Difficult To Be Me

Sometimes it is difficult to be me 

There is so much difficulty 

Responsibility for the well being of someone never ends

I feel like I am being held back sometimes

I am uncertain about the future 

So I throw myself into today

It is so difficult to be me 

I want freedom to make choices, but don't want to accept the consequences 

I look for acceptance 

Then try to find ways to be different

I am afraid to show my feelings

Imagining that it is impossible for me to understand what I am feeling

Yet I do know what I feel and I really do care 

Even though sometimes it is just so difficult to be me