Disappointment part1

i can’t  believe your down
but i only hang out with people like me
pretty sure we grew up the same way 
if we fall no one kissed our booboos we got up and walked away
buttt how  did you get here
you have always had my hand
but this ain’t you. what happened to you man?
you tell them people talking about you good job 
because your the one doing something right
when they’re quiet you failed some how but you that to yourself 
but what’s up friend you not laughing 
you ain’t even you.
my friend looked and said sometimes soldiers get tired too.
i don’t feel emotions 
what’s a cry? When i get sad it don’t seem real and I’m numb inside 
im a lost soul with my name 
I’m the smartest with no brain
so i don’t know what’s got into me
been put out at 16 living in the streets
worked to jobs and still ain’t walk the stage 
what’s wrong with me? Man you wouldn’t last a Day. 
So i just listened 
but foreal i never heard of shit like that! 
But how could i be mad at something when i never knew to have his back
But yea like i said you couldn’t been me got beat everyday because i looked like “daddy”
16 two jobs sharing 1 meal with 3
u don’t stay for free nobody helped me 
it’s always ass or cash 
so starve all week or hate myself for life ...all because my mom put me out 
and you know i wasn’t bad
just was born tough
but how can i be weak 
when all i did was get beat but i understand now i gotta go 
thanks for actually being a saint to such a fuck up like me.....