DUCT TAPE SMILE

A covert operation
Covering up the past
Somehow, living in the present
Pretending I'm not harassed
Suppression, denial, avoidance
They've become an accepted skill
​​​I guess it's mind over matter
Or fake it, until
But underneath the pretense
Everything's not fine
I refuse to wear a duct tape smile
Or pretend my cancerous pain is benign
I have to go there, feel the pain
So don't close the door to my past
Don't keep the victim, a victim
With pain that's unsurpassed
Can't you see, I'm bleeding
But nobody wants to see blood
They want it white washed, glossed over
Who wants to be dragged in the mud
I won't allow the past to be buried
Covered up like it's not there
I'm going to break it wide open
Make the whole world become aware
It's not the child who should suffer
Like she did something horribly wrong
If I could have done then, what I'm doing now
I wouldn't have suffered for so long
I won't let the past be dismissed
Stuffed in a closet, pushed away
I refuse to wear a duct tape smile
Or keep the victim silenced today