Emotions

I don't know how to show emotions,
So I bury them, 
can't feel emotions,
Can't be weak, 
Have to stay strong,
have to pretend I'm okay,
But inside I'm hurting,
but inside I'm being ripened apart,
feeling broken,
Feeling lost,
wanting to slit my thighs to watch the blood drip, 
Taking my knife cutting into my flesh knowing it's going to release my demons from inside...
drip drop red liquid runs down my thighs drip drop it's on the floor,
but I can't,
I made a promise long time ago.