Empty

Dear love don't be sad when I say
that you make me feel empty inside.

Because the world is full of fear

and I seem to be it's favorite place to hide

I startle and shutter against the clink and clatter

of all the people I meet

I'm sure I have a heart somewhere

but their existence drowns out the beat

When you touch me the seal is broken

and the world just drains away

Leaving me in a still, safe place

embraced by the light of day

I feel nothing from the outside

No chaos flowing in

The fog is lifted, the sunlight streams through

and I can see myself again

With you, love, I am empty

With you I feel new, I feel clean

With you, my love, I can be only me 

Only with you can I ever be seen

***

Dear love, I seem to have lost

Whatever it was that you helped me to find

I tried to keep track of myself

But I seem to have left my grin behind

I can't find the heart in my chest

Nor the rhythm or music of my soul

I can't find my righteous rage

Just this deep, dark, bleeding hole

I can't see without the sunlight

Now everything is just wrapped in black

If you find any of these pieces, love

Then please give a few of them back

Because I have left my grin behind me

I am mad and no one tells me it's ok

I thought I'd keep my head on my shoulders 

But it has clearly dropped and rolled away