End Of Time

 November.30.2000
 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

It's almost here
End of time
A drop of a tear
A drop of a dime 
The sudden fear
Of losing your mind
Knowing the light is near
It's nothing from man kind

All you know
That's the direction you stear
The pain you have you try to show
But no one is taking notice
Not even trying to care
They would be happy to see you go
It's not really fair

The hate from people you know
Yep it's almost the end of the line
We
re either God or the devil
Who takes your soul
And people always thought you were fine 
They didn't look deep enough
But yet it is your most challening goal
You even thought you were tough
You haven't figured out yet
But it all changed when you two met

For God to take away
From his horrible sight
You don't want to take another day
You don't want to take on your tears
You don't want to fight 
Or face your fears
But in all of this 
When someone asks what's wrong
The answers are at miss
And you have nothing to say
You have no reason to live 
You realize you're not strong

You don't want any more tasks
To try to take on all by yourself
You need someone to help you
The end of time is near
Someone you need
One that will stick by your side
A love to feed
Someone that's true
Someone who won't hide 

Their feelings
Their happiness
Their meaning of life
Their heart
Their love
You need it all
To pick you up when you fall apart
To tell you you're elegant
And beautiful as before 
As pure as a dove 

Please wipe the sadness
That lurks in your eyes
You don't want that anymore
The madness
That stops you from having blue skies
You try your hardest to ignore
But that in a million years
Will never happen your soul begins to die 
By the end of time 

I will be weak
To have any love to send
Or any power to seek
The power to mend
That special love
That special friend
My luck has run out 
Because I never had none
I feel so trapped 
To scream too much it hurts like a ton
IT's so disturbing I can't even dream
I've tried so hard but they have won

I've given up and tried to stick with it 
But only for awhile
That never lasts
It goes out of style
And once again
I relive my past
When will it all end

My heataches
Tears that run like a river 
This pain never gives me a break
How do I survive
I then get sick and start to shiver
And this depression is so thick
I no longer feel alive

The end of time is so close to me 
I'm dying inside
I just want to be free
I no longer want to hide