Eternity

My heart dances through a darkened pit of fire
For I’m losing family and friends as their clocks expire
One after another, or so it unfortunately seems
I’m going to be here alone, in reality, and not just in my dreams
There’s a flame that burns deeply inside of me
It ignites as the wounds grow larger, burning me almost peacefully
The cuts in my heart are ripping apart so viciously
The amount of pain I have to feel is something almost fiercely 
But I am not someone who can stop the world
For I am only but myself, one small scared little girl
Death always comes as a shock to me
Because it ends ones suffering, yet, throws a dagger through me… for eternity
Because I am the one who has to sit and ponder
I am the one who has to sit and wonder
Why not me? Why my friends and my family?
I’ve come to accept that death is part of life
But why does the ultimate ticking of the clock have to cut like a butcher knife
I’ve not gathered the strength to say my last final goodbyes
So as I sit here with tears falling from my eyes
I hope everyone I’ve ever lost can somehow see
That I’ve always needed them more, than what they’ve needed me
Because they were always what kept me together, they were my glue
Now that they are gone, I’m left here alone, not knowing what to do
Death always comes as a shock to me
Because it ends ones suffering, yet, throws a dagger through me… for eternity

Stephanie Davis
November 2021