FACING MY PANDORA

Trying to sit with my emotions
And with the memories I pushed away
I'm trying hard to be focused
To connect with my feelings today
I'm terrified of feeling vulnerable
Of feeling the pain inside my heart
Afraid of expressing feelings
For fear that I'll fall apart
I ran and kept on running
Though I had no place to go
I buried my emotions
In a hole, filled with sorrow
Buried emotions, never die
There's no place for them to stay
They stir up feelings left inside
They don't simply go away
When something's been locked up inside
And never allowed to come out
Eventually you have to open up
And not care how loud you shout
But I keep enforcing the old messages
"If you're going to cry; Go to your room!"
I'm still the fearful little child
Afraid of facing impending doom
Tell me; What could possibly happen
If I let my Pandora out
What am I really afraid of
What are my childhood fears about?
When will I ever be brave enough
To let the whole world see
The repressed emotions of my inner child
Who was never allowed to be free