Failure

These days the only issue on my mind is failure. The more I start to believe I am. Failure is powerful word but its the word that's been on my mind for a couple of days. Many factors have played a part to make me think about the word. Its best describes me these days. Always reflect on previous  years and see where I could have done better in life. I could have stopped feeling this way ages ago but the decisions I have made me feel this way. I am paying the price for my own failures. Could have been somewhere in life where I  was satisfied with what I have done. I feel stupid and disappointed with myself.

Even trying to do the best can sometimes not be enough. That's what annoys me. How much effort you put in is never enough. You have to go the extra ,mile. I always question myself the same thing everyday.

''Why is it that how much effort I put into something is never enough''

What else do I have to do. This whole failure issue is eating me alive. Feel stupid and worthless. I feel annoyed at myself mostly because I had the chance but I didn't take it. It resulted in me being in the place I am in now. How much do I have to do.

I feel stuck...