Fairytale Delusion

My spirit lives in a romance, mystery, fantasy 
All over life I search for what cannot be 
Then once I have what I want I don't know I have it 
I live in the moment and take it for granted 
Not for unknowing love, for it's known to me 
As immense as the sky and 
As enchanting as a dream that wonders where was I 
Soon I go pushing away life likely mate 
And realize my loyalty a point past to late 
The torture my hearts shed, unending ballets my tears have lead 
All symptomatic of my hearts confusion 
My insecurity and fairytale delusion 
Once those whom were meant have paid the cost 
Alone my soul's shameful burden is to bare what is lost 
My wondering heart belongs to an ideal 
Causing me to hit bottom and face what is real 
Honestly I wish for the one I'd be true 
I pray for the courage to start all anew 
I dare to fancy a fitting just right 
Like the bliss of true loves arms night after night