Falling Apart

I am broken
So take this token
Of my sanity
From the vanity
In my heart
Torn apart
By the very thing that keeps me alive

My soul is failing
My heart flailing
My head filled up
With toxins from my cup 
And truths I can't handle 
Burning slowly out, like a candle
Why did it end up like this?

Friends can break your heart too
It's been through
But I can't place 
That look on my face 
Or these feelings in her lonely soul
When did I become so droll? 
How did I fall so far?

All we do is hide away
From all the things that we could say
All I did was fail today
On my way
To the lost forest
With roses from a strange florist
Who dares only to see me happy

I hate that I can only disappoint her
With petals tattered from disaster 
But I created this storm myself
Nothing but my own doubt on the shelf
With a blatant mind I must speak
For my life ahead is bleak
I pray that my voice would be heard 

My answer was only silence
All I can find is a cold defiance
Of something once held dear
Now damaged by an infectious fear
Shattered inside
My feelings, I can not hide
So through this forest I walk
Hoping that one day we may again talk 
But deep down, I truly know I'll be forever lost