Fear

A shroud of mystery
An enigma 
A problem 
That needs to be solved
Admiration 
For the mystery 
Is ever my reason
For being so bold
But then retreating 
Back into my shell 
Away from the fear
Away from staring eyes
I'm afraid of what is thought
I'm afraid of looking stupid
I'm afraid of my own tears 
That redden my eyes

I'm afraid but entranced
By the pattern that emerges
I'm afraid and it's enhanced 
By the way this just keeps hurting
Why am I this way
I feel to much and yet so little
Why am I so utterly afraid 
Of being belittled 
I'm not smart
I'm not brilliant 
I'm just a girl whose afraid
Of her own insignificance 

I'm just a girl who feels to much
Too much for too many
I'll be here for you
But I'm too afraid to ask 
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