Feducated

I sense purpose 
I search for it 
I seek direction 

Feeling useless 
feeling unfit
feeling misdirected 

Living life selfish 
living ungrateful 
living with contradictions 

Who ? You.... surface 
Who? Me.... hateful 
who makes these decisions 

Hereditary. Possibility 
hereditary, born to it 
hereditary, these patterns 

Adopted at birth 
adopted from the start 
adopted from past generations 

Given the circumstances 
given the facts 
given the insecurities 

Passed down 
passed carelessly 
passed with ignorance 

I’m the chosen one 
I’m the detective 
I’m on the case 

Studying myself 
studying my loved ones 
studying life eye to eye, face 

Learning the mystery
learning the history 
learning to love 

Myself
them 
her 

Now 
gone 
done 

My brain 
my heart 
my soul 

All hurt 
but not for 
NOTHING 

They hurt for me
they hurt for her 
they hurt for them 

A sign 
a light 
a sight 

Finally I can see 
finally I can read 
finally I believe 

Break free 
break me 
break from it all 

Broken I was 
broken I am 
broken to this life 

I’ll take myself 
I’ll take this life 
I’ll fix this mind of mine 

My promise to myself 
my promise to them 
my promise to her