Feedback Desired

So I am who I am 
but that’s not who I was 

Before the transformation 
mistakes were made prior 

Well I feel I’m close to healed 
but what should I expect next 

I meet a girl, she’s into me 
where do I start to explain me 

Do I tell her the good, bad and ugly with hopes she will love me 

Or do I not feel the need because it’s really not who I am 

The truth will set you free 
but the truth from before wasn’t me 

So I’m confused a tad bit as I know I don’t want to mess this up 

But I feel a full disclosure might expose myself for who I was and hurt 

This life a constant battle amidst what’s right and wrong 

I know I want to do what’s right and that’s not of concern 

But what is right is what I ask myself truthfully when I think at night 

For me to wear their sins that I already carried for a lifetime this far 

Or is it okay to accept it and move on like a closed case you accepted the punishment from 

I don’t know and that’s the real concern for me because moving on I want to be happy 

My subconscious tells me it shouldn’t matter but on the contrary it said the same thing when it did 

My heart says no matter what any true love will love you for who you are 

But that’s not me and it’s not who I am, so I’m confused about what needs to be shared

Any feedback greatly appreciated as I know the collective thoughts of stronger minds might lead to a rational decision 

You can’t lose something you never had but you may never gain what you scare away 

So who is to say or decide what to expose or decide , what’s wrong or right , there’s no sun or moon in love to determine the day from night 

My emotions all mixed and confused as the thoughts all erupt and leave me feeling empty from lust 

Who really knows or thinks highly enough to share their opinion amongst my decisions to help guide a young pup