Feels

Too many feels. How to communicate them?
I don’t know how to tell you. I use code,
Talk in a way you could never understand.
With the hope I won’t be given away by my psychology.
Praying you won’t hear how fast my heart beats.
Hearing your voice makes me want to embrace you:
I can’t contain how I feel when I hear it.
I want to jump into a pool of freezing water.
Just so I don’t have to feel what I feel for you.
It always cuts too deep, right through to the core,
And out the other side. It hurts. It hurts to feel
What I feel, for you.