Fires blaze

Fires blaze within my eyes,
A smile masks all my lies,
Screaming, begging, calling out,
A final, frantic, desperate attempt to me saved.

Scarlet tears cascade from those ocean blue eyes. A vehement envy to end this suffering. A silver blade stays by my side, Because all hope that lived within dies.

Each day fades out of focus and  darkness draws closer, with all my flaws. I'm trapped, afraid and  worthless.

I'm tempted to search for a way to escape and kill the shame. To make it go away a deal with the devil, in blood I seal.

They believe I died of suicide, But no one cares what the truth maybe. It wasn't a rope, blade or pills, That crushed my soul, and gave me grief.

I was die inside way before, To go thorough live each day felt like torture. Pills couldn't kill what was already dead, A shattered soul, an empty head.

In the darkness I wait all silenced and lost, try to remember a time when I was funny.

I lock the devil, with the key of self harming and only he may open the door, with the blood of my arm.