First Change

You have changed

Yeah, but you’ve changed

But I changed because you’ve changed

Yeah. But I changed because you changed

So now it’s an argument of who changed first

But each change seems to be for the worse

Then we fuss and fight over which one caused the most hurt

But does it hurt more if the change was second and not first

Then we both swear the day we met was a curse

And the rest of the night we swear and curse

But it wasn’t like this at first

I would hunger for your kiss and for your touch I’d thirst

Now I feel hunger pains and you aren’t even trying to quench my thirst

And when I say I’m hurting you say you’re not a nurse

Then you want to blame me for finding a night nurse

And now it’s my fault you went and gave away some of yours

Yeah, I know it’s yours

Each time I ask for some you’d tell me it’s mine not yours

So fine, we both did some shit

Tit for tat and other messed up shit

We forgive but didn’t forget shit

And each time this clogged up toilet brings back up shit

Was it me second or you first shit

It means the same when I say it or you say the reverse, shit

And now we’re at a point

A point without any view

To view each other’s point

From the other’s point of view

And it leaves me wondering when did things all change

I know that change is constant but why the constant change

I knew love was once welcomed; now it’s been estranged

It only leaves me thinking, man this shit is strange

What do we do now, where do we go from here

From here we can go wherever and do whatever there

To ourselves we must be honest; to ourselves we must be fair

Honest – I do love you

Honest – I do care

But I can no longer do this not leaving because of fear

But it isn’t leaving I fear,

It’s my heart and mind playing truth or dare

Heart – Truth – I do love her

Make her Happy, my mind’s dare

But you’ve changed as do the season

But I’ve learnt to adapt and change with you, season to season

And it is for that reason

I want us to reason

And fight for a reason

And both make the first change