For My First Born

Four years ago I was working at Mountain Designs in the city and it was a quiet day,  so boring 3 customers the whole day,  so I just started doodling. I had no idea where I was going with this picture but it started to shape itself and once I was done with that I started writing to a child that I didn't even know I was pregnant with. I found out 2 weeks after drawing and writing this I was pregnant!!  never did I think it would happen so quickly,  i thought I would be one of those barren girls simply because I never thought any good would ever happen to me.  But i knew if it ever did that I would nourish and raise my child with all I had, nomatter what wounds I may have received in the past my child or children would not know such sorrow because I promised myself i would never let anyone hurt my babies... Ever! 

❤

I hope that when you come into the world with my strength that you always remember my love, 
Not only will I carry you for months i will shelter you for years, wrap my arms around you like a glove. 
Your not even here but somewhere up there you exsist,  waiting for my body to build a fortress for you to lie. 
My heart cannot wait for the day, that I find out your coming my way, to be the one person who can make me smile when I cry. 
I think about how amazing it would feel to hold you in my arms for the first time, like I've never known love until now. 
Carry you around the house all night,  all day So drawn to your presence to the point where I'm afraid to put you down. 
I'd miss you too much when I leave, love you so much I wouldn't need to breathe  
I'd just need you there by my side. 
To remind me when I'm quick to anger that happiness is always needed in your world
And that regardless of my moments you'll love me all the time.  ❤