Forgiveness

I sit here and I wait for you

I could give up the fight

it would be so much easier to do

I feel like I’ve lost my way with no goal in sight.

we’ve known each other since high school

you used to laugh at me

and make me feel like a fool

then one day you began to see

yourself spending lots of time after we got out of school

with only me.

we married soon just after graduation day

moved into a little apartment on the edge of town

struggled to get by on a poor man’s pay

that was all before our lives started spiraling down.

working apart all day long

trying just to pay the bills

I know what I did sure was wrong

inside my head your face I can see it still.

I threw away a perfect life

for a minutes pleasure

lost my loving wife

and my greatest treasure.

after my wife had left me

the car got sold

I was crazy, why couldn’t I see

now I’m alone and getting old.

Now here I sit on this street corner in the rain

no place to lay my head

my heart is breaking from the pain

day after day I wish I was dead.

then came the day when you walked up to me

forgiveness on your lips

the love in your eyes I could really see.

“Come home with me” is what I heard you say

“I miss you each and every day”

my alarm clock goes off and out of the nightmare I awake

“thank God that was only a dream I’ll never make that mistake”

written by: ronald mason on june 22, 2012