Foster care child

I am thirsty while the old man drinks water.please sir I say just a little?

He throws it inches from me i try to suck out whatever I can though there is nothing to drink in there and images of food and water laugh at me till I black out

What are all the bright lights for?someone ask do you know were you are ?I say isn't this heaven? a blonde  adult  avoids a laugh no kiddo your  in the hospital and your dad's been arrested for child endangerment.she says more but all I want to do is sleep more.so that's what I do is go back to sleep.

I hate this house.after the hospital the blonde lady whose a social worker dropped me off at this house and left me here.with two kids.one an 18 year old ryan and shelly whose 15.our foster mother and father are nice when social workers come around but as soon as were alone they call us there cash cows.they say dont start any trouble when they leave us for an hour alone cause if we do well be sent to a worse foster home.but see when there gone shelly and the 18 year old like to entice in under the cover games.I never feel right about it. But don't want them to like me less.it her even get me to take drugs to take the edge off they say. The day our foster mom and dad catches us I am so scared of being caught and sent to that worst home I run out the house in the middle of  the night.it doesnt take long to find a ten year old wearing a blue digimon jacket. I am asked questions about were the drugs came from and have i taken any.I lie on most of those questions.I will not betray shelly or the 18 year old even if they are pervs.

Next morning I'm off to another home.I don't know the fate of shelly or ryan I just know it probably won't be good.my anxiety has me sweating so much the social worker  ask if I feel well I say Im fine and ask which foster home to next.foster home she says?well she says we've had trouble finding a home.when we learned about the drugs. So we'll have to go to the orphanage for now kiddo.I thought this was cool at first. other kids meals your own bed.but it was not what I expected. Very dark and gloomy.the kids might as well have been zombies no one was out of place all because of drugs.a red pill they would not explain what it was.I took it though and it had the opposite affect instead of calming me down I became a speedy jet the next morning. I was talking fast running around the orphanage like I'd lost my mind.the thought even occured to run buck naked but I didn't. 

The nuns accused me of using drugs and told the social worker after three weeks no more.this was pretty much how it went for awhile a family always saw flaws in me.one day I left someone house were id made there dogs agitated by laughing at them .I got in the car and said which foster home next?the social worker said actually  Chris how would you feel if someone were to say let's stop foster care let's try an adopt someone in need. 

Is that person me i said after a long pause.yes she said and before I knew it she pulled me into a hug.the family that adopted me wanted a brother for there newborn ecspecially since they couldn't conceive anymore.her name was opal I watched her the first time she walked on her own.the first time she got an A I was there.When she got an F I encouraged her to do better. Being in foster care I wanted to make sure she never had the life I was given so I always told mom and dad once I was an adult of course that If it got to hard I would take opal and raise her myself but I refused to let her live down the label of a foster care child .