Futile fear

I see you in my dreams when all I want to do is sleep what are you achieving by turning my dreams to nightmares 
Why am I still scared of you when you can’t do anything to me 

I see you in my thoughts when something makes me think of memories now tinged by your wondering hand 
Why am I frightened of you when your not even allowed near me or others 

Whenever I see you I just want to move past you your family and the act that made a girl grow up very quickly