Getting back my feelings

• A new step forward 

That seems to be right

It wasnt so easy

And took part of life

With things coming back

And messing with head

U feel super happy

Yet deep there so sad

I guess its the time now

To finally decide

Would loosing most precious

Be once again right

• They can make u stupid

And make u see blured

Yet to be without them 

Is shallow and dead 

Of all these emotions

U cant just choose best

When bright make u happy

Whats dark make u bad

The final decision seems

To be somwhere

The fear to decide 

Is hiding ahead

• How much will it take

To step on the side

To make a decision 

Which cant be backed up

To think what was done

Should work only best

For how u proceed

And whats the effect

On people around u 

Especially who care

As hurting those loved ones

Needs to be concerned 

• As someone once said

That patience is best

Lets take one step back

And see will it help

It feels so pathetic 

And cowardly move 

Yet cause its decision

I hope will be good

In order to chose right

U need to be right

I want to see clearly

Like under spotlight 

• Looks like in a while

I am finally back

A bit plain and shallow

Yet strong and not bad

A bit disapointed

Like after retreat

Yet fully aware

Its not a defeat

I will be back stronger

And tackle again 

What scares even bravest 

And lives in my head.